Even in misery know that it is special. To get to the light at the end of the tunnel you must pass through its darkest point. During this period there maybe disorientation, confusion: it is alright. You may grasp for knowledge and search for experiences without conclusion: it is alright. You may be discouraged and even ready to give-up the Master: it is alright. It is at this juncture where all you can do is to let go, give-up. Then the emotions and mind settles and the dawning of clarity begins. It can only deepen and strengthen you.